Week 8
January 24th
Wegovy shot #9 - 1.00 mg
Starting Weight - 272.2
Current Weight - 259.8
Weight lost - 12.4
Where have I been?
So here's the thing...
I got discouraged. I didn't feel like Wegovy was working for me. I still craved the sweets and wasn't having the side effects so many others were describing on the support group pages.
I wasn't feeling sick all the time and I definitely wasn't losing 25 pounds in two months. I kept taking the shots because a few people said the 1mg when the medicine kicked in for them. So, I figured what is there to write in the mean time?
I didn't really weigh myself and carried through the four weeks of .5mg feeling... not much - if anything.
Then it was time for the 1mg. I was nervous because so many people reported feeling sick all the time and many had to quit because they couldn't take the nausea.
I even delayed my usual Sunday morning shot to Monday night. I was in a "what the hell, just go for it" mood.
I got through Monday night and into Tuesday afternoon feeling pretty normal. Then about 3pm on Tuesday I started to feel tired. I wanted to nap. When I finally logged off my computer for the day, I laid down and fell asleep. Only to wake up about 9PM needing to vomit. Yuck! I don't mind telling you that Chick-fil-A is not something you want to be vomiting up. It was awful. I threw up until my stomach was empty. I cleaned myself up and went back to bed. Aha! It works because it makes you bulimic - now I get it! /sarcasm
Wednesday morning I was super cautious about what I ate. I was scared. Toast for breakfast and a homemade flatbread pizza for lunch. It all went fine and I've been fine since. No more episodes of feeling nauseas (though, today is only Thursday).
So, if the worst thing I can expect is to throw up about 24 hours after the dose, I'll deal with it.
The thing is, I AM losing weight. Not 20 pounds in a month (or even ten), but I stepped on the scale and I am losing much to my surprise.
I haven't been tracking my calories or anything like that. If I had, I bet I'd be much further along in my progress. Unfortunately, I'm in "all in or all out" kind of girl. I wish I weren't like that.
Going Forward
To quote Nellie Bertram "what if you just full ass it?". Meaning, what if I really dove in and drunk the water and tracked my calories down to the minute detail? Yes, it would work. And, also yes, I want to be that person. I vow to be that person tomorrow every single night.
I'm a flawed human being. It's hard to do the right thing (especially in the face of Girl Scout cookie season!) even when you know it's the ONE SINGLE THING that could change your life.
And yes, I do mean life. Because being unhealthy and looking unhealthy is just draining. Maybe not for everyone, but it is for me.
Today I have tracked my food (though drinking water is still my Everest to climb) and I hope I can lean into this and continue.
But, I am still wondering... where is Wegovy fitting into all this? It's not curbing my appetite the way others have mentioned. Though, it seems for quite a lot of them, the nauseas is so often and lasts so long just the idea of eating makes them go green. I don't want to be like that either.
As I've said all along, there is a psychological component here because a food addict will eat. And I am a food addict. Being hungry was never a precursor to eating for me. The taste of the ooey gooey goodness was/is my motivation
I have three more does of 1mg to go, then I move to four weeks of 1.7mg before ending on the maintenance dose of 2.4.
I still have high hopes that I'm just a late bloomer on this medication.
